Gratitude to the darkness teaching me about light
Writing just to write and sharing because I can.
A need to cleanse is here – I bet you have felt the need to relieve something heavy.
Sure, hopefully it’s a little warmer. Around here in Cincinnati it’s said, “If you don’t like the weather, wait 5 minutes.” Well, at least I say that. Last week was snow boots, scarf and gloves and this weekend is sandals, v-neck tops with short sleeves…and rain jackets. What was frozen last week is now wet, cold and heavy. We’re glimpsing into actual springtime. Ayurveda calls the spring characteristics kapha.
We are preparing for change, growth and evolution from the hibernated space of winter. The daffodils and tree buds clue us in on the outside. Early March marks garden time, for me this begins with leek seedlings in my office windowsill.
In my body, I feel the springtime. Or maybe I should say I feel the movement away from winter. In yoga talk this ‘movement away’ can be expressed with the term apana vayu, down and away and udana vayu, up and out. Vayu is movement.
My yoga practice has helped to bring growth. This has been challenging, rewarding and a bit painful in itself, and I don’t mean challenging postures. Yoga is simple and the practice brings awareness to the complications I create on my own accord. It’s brought the need to have heartfelt conversation with myself, where I am the passive listener lacking judgment.
I remember springtime healing my heart years ago, long before my first yoga class, or ever hearing the word ‘Ayurveda’. I had been stuck, with a stacking sense of gloom and inability to move. Grief had stricken my family and I felt isolated and lacking direction. But being outside in the warmth and simply witnessing Mother Nature’s natural sense to go from deadness to completely lush with bright green upward moving growth toward the sun. And it made me realize I too, could get out of my mental state and use my natural abilities to adapt, develop solid structure of which growth and movement upward could occur. I’d say that was the first time, the first spring that I employed the essence of Ayurveda I now teach to others.
Gratitude to the darkness teaching us about light.